A white dove just flew on my window this morning and woke me up. I wonder what that means....
My last week has been very quiet and lonely. I have spent a lot of time by myself wondering around and occupying myself with my own hobbies.

On monday, I took myself to The Strand, the large antique bookstore to buy a travel book that would help Alice and I plan our journey to New Hampshire, New England, Vermont, Mass, Connecticut and abouts next week. The strand didn't have anything so I twisted my way through Washington square where there was a base singer playing to his own beat. He was really good singing all kinds of classics. It was nice to see he wasn't in it for the money but instead the pleasure (including all the homeless and mentally insaaaane people that had gathered around and were swinging their heads
and clenching their lips to stop them bursting out in praise) of people listening to his music. As I passed through WS I was in the top of SOHO so I wandered around seeing if I could find something soft, my poor teeth, and cheap. I finally found a sushi parlour which was really nice, dark wood, soft lights, oriental music, just what I felt like. I had two sushi rolls, miso soup and half an orange for $5 ! Bargain. It was so lovely eating alone. After that I headed back up to union square where all the want-to-be-creatives are. People who try and be artistic but just look weird, a lot of NYU stu
dents. I saw this lady that had covered her entire face with blush. Yes blush. She looked like a 5 year old dressed up as a raspberry. Strange. I went into Barnes and noble and bought a Road Tripping USA book.
I had interning again this week and it was same old same old. I had to go to the Hearst Cooperation tower on Columbus Circle. It just so happen on that particular day I was lazy getting ready, I wore minimal makeup and a big t-shirt paired with oversize cardigan and jeans. A regular hobo. So I recognized the name when they told me where I was going but I couldn't put my finger on it, the Hearst tower is the
most environmentally friendly building in NYC and it highly recognizable by its triangular structure. I went into the beautiful cool foyer with the three storey waterfall with the escalators running up and down the middle and natural light streaming in from all sides. Not having a magnetic pass that all these beautiful and smartly dressed women had that they swiped their chanel, prada, fendi or LV bags across I hobbled up to the security desk. I said I was here to see someone on th
e 33rd floor to pick up some jewellery, they called me a "messenger" and pushed me off to the side entrance door. I asked again to go up to the 33rd floor but I was denied entry again because I didn't have a messenger pass. After talking to work I was to wait in the main foyer for a phone call which would allow me access upstairs. As I waited I saw many young and old fabulous people coming in. Many of the younger ones stopped and changed their shoes to skyhigh stilettoues and went upstairs. Finally my access was granted and the security and guards all wished me Goodluck as I asscended the escalors. Did they think I was going to a job interview or a model casting?! Craaazy, looking like that?! Damn~ The hearst building is home to Beautiful Living, Vogue, Harpers Bazaar, The Advocate, The Conneticut Post, The News Times, A & E Networks, Cosmoploitan TV, Black Book, Electronic Engineers, Hire.com, ivillage inc just to name a few. So since I wasn't looking the part I decided to act it, I went to area of elevators 17 - 40 and waited with two smart looking girls. I looked for the Up button but I couldn't see it so presumed they'd obviously pressed it or you needed a pass. As I jumped in the elevator with them I turned to press the button "34" but there were no buttons in the elevator! Whoops. Finally we reached their stop and I built up the courage to ask how to get down a few levels. The secret was a key-pad. There was a key pad next to the elevators where you dialed the floor which you were heading and the computer would tell you what elevator you were to get onto. The elevator would then take you to your floor. Scary. I picked up my $15 000 diamond earrings from a girl 23 years of age, so jealous of her job and workplace!! The earrings look frightening similar to the ones Oli and I bought for Winnie at canal street all those years ago, and headed home. I now learnt my lesson in looking nice, I dressed up for the rest of the week but typically I wasn't sent anywhere special. Sigh.

I have recently been trying to be healthy, not eating but physically and follow in mom's footsteps and walk to work. It is soooo much more interesting however the other day I was late so jumped on the subway and saw a man get chased and arrested. What people do not to pay the $2 metro card price. Although I am almost at that stage - it seems so much when you can just walk or ride a bike. I really want to get a bike, as I walk over williamsburg bridge 100's of bikes fly past, although I am jealous I am cold walking they must be freezing with that wind. On Tuesday as I walked to work I randomly looked up and saw a man washing the outside of his windows. This wouldn't be so amazing if he wasn't 10 stories high and had no visible signs of safety! I stopped and watched, no else saw him until I stopped and looked up and then quite the crowd gathered. It was scary, he was standing on a ledge about 1ft wide and was happily cleaning away. SCARY. I get scared going on the roof and there isn't any wind. The next day, it was cold so I wore all of my warm clothes, a cardigan under my leather jacket, i think I am going to die this winter. I was walking past the same intersection and a homeless man had fallen asleep in the middle of the walkway and two police officers were trying to move him out of the publics way. He was still asleep so they tried yelling at him to wake him up but he had fallen asleep on top of the subway vent (all the hot air from the subway line escapes up there - I guess he was warm throughout the night but deaf because the subways passing are soo loud). Eventually the police officers nudged him hard with their steel capped shoes which woke him and then they continued to yell...


Tuesday night is sewing night which I was very excited for, I jumped on the subway and was taken back immediately by this man that had one eye, the other had literally been taken out of its socket and so he had this big whole, fortunately his eyelid covered most of it but there was still a cm of red nothingness pocking through. GROSSSSSS. That night at sewing I attempted to use a factory sewing machine. They are made completely out of metal so that they can run 24hr/7days a week and they go aaaalot faster. It was very hard to control, to gain maximum control of my machine I had to take my shoe off and show my halloween socks. Tehe. It made everyone laugh... at me =(.
Like I said I have been trying to be a bit healthier and a bit fitter. My main motivation is not being the girl that went overseas and came back 10kg heavier. I refuse to be her and I am determined. I am not lookin
g forward to what my motivation will be like in a month when it gets soo cold. I am the only person running in leggings and tshirt, people are
already wearing vests, beanies an
d tracksuit pants. The idea of running with clothes on it so weird to me. One evening as I was returning from my run fireworks went off over the Brooklyn bridge, the williamsburg bridge is about 1km from it so I had a perfect view of manhattan, brooklyn and the bridge. They looked so pretty especially reflecting off the glass facades of downtown and they were such awesome fireworks. It took me 10 minutes to run across the bridge and they were still going when I ran off the other side. Was quite the display, I think it may have been for the Jewish New Year. Last night I ran to Manhattan bridge about 100m short of brooklyn bridge but I did not want to push my knees - I self diagnosed myself with patella tendentious. I am really upset about it but as there is nothing you can do I will just run through the stabbing pain. On that run I saw the New York waterfalls. I only saw two but there are 4 waterfalls funded by the The Public Art Fund ranging 90-120ft costing $9-10 million dollars. The point of them are the raise money but they also double as filters for the east river and generating electricity. I do not find them particulary amazing, I have only seen them at night and they look like water being spurted out of scaffolding...

I think that is all the news I have. I am completely and utterly depressed by the stock market at the moment. I want to cry, my zero money has turned into negatives. I went out once last week and I met these 4 austr
alian blokes who loved talking to another australia and me likewise. One had worked for the lehman brothers and another got layed of the day before because 20% of his company was owned by them. It is all such a shame... for me. Joking. Everyone is suffering. I think working in medicine and food is the way to go, everyone gets sick and injured and everyone needs to eat...
Well I have been trying to rent out my room for the last week, it is really tedious having people coming in and out of my room and I am determined to get rid of it TODAY ! Fingers crossed.
Well I hope you're all enjoying the hot weather, I am so jealous. I want to be at the beach, sunbaking by the pool or eating fresh fruit and lemonade. Yum delicious. I miss the food of home. I leave for work 15 minutes earlier than I usually do so I can go to this supermarket in lower SOHO called gourmet garage so I can buy a 60c bagel and $2.99 caesar salad (no meat) and a piece of fruit for lunch. All under $5. I am such a bargain hunter but I secretly want to go to Peter Lugars Steak House which I run past, mmm steak, mashed potato and a vino.
... xxx m
